Sunshine

Life sucks…yeah right!

monikadchowdhry — Mon, 18 Apr 2011 05:59:51 +0000

Generally Life doesn’t seem to treat everyone with equality…that’s my observation over last few years. Some of us are just too hassle free with life while a few chosen ones just keep fighting their way out. So should one start to believe too hard on destiny and blame “kismat” for every damn thing in life? Quite possible because that’s (destiny, I mean) is one thing that would not retaliate and backfire. And at the same time its guilt-free to do that. However on second thoughts, doesn’t that make you an escapist? Too afraid to face your own bloody life! So what to do? Okay…I start thinking rationally and desperately look out for some options –

1. Avoid situations, people and everything that cause hassle in your life

2. Learn to become deaf & blind – stop listening and looking at things that you don’t like

3. Be positive – okay…this looks straight out of a good living book and it’s super-difficult to do. But one can still try.

4. Isolate yourself – but this can cause depression

5. Become selfish – I haven’t tried this as yet but thinking of doing this now…what do you say?

Uncertainty – word of the day

monikadchowdhry — Mon, 08 Nov 2010 09:23:42 +0000

My life is a nothing but a bundle of uncertain events and I am nothing but a silent spectator who watches with utmost patience and waits for all things to fall in place on their own. And why do I don’t take any action? It’s because the situations would not allow me to take any action. Everything is beyond human control and in the process I have become the ultimate example of patience personified.

The last thing I would have expected myself to do was wait and watch my husband loose strength of his legs. It just makes me remember that day we were leaving for our honeymoon and at the New Delhi railway station, I watched him run like an idiot for a small piece of baggage. I am trying my best not to think a lot about it. The more I think, the worse it gets.

Moscow

monikadchowdhry — Sun, 17 Oct 2010 18:55:34 +0000

To define this place in my words, I’d say my first impression is of a cold & not-so-friendly place. Though it may change in next few days that I am here. Because that’s how it has always been with me. I generally don’t make very good first impressions. Today while I was trying to understand the culture of this place from someone else’s perspective and knowledge, I felt that it would be a dream come true for me to live the life of a lone traveller who just wanders around listening to people, taking learnings from them. Too much of an ideal world…

Back to reality, mum was quite excited to see me on Skype. It was an experience for her. And so was Anku and MIL. They too were reasonably excited enough. And like all other times, I am again today so much thankful to God to blessing me with a lovely husband who is just so understanding and helpful. I may not say that very often but more than love, I respect him a lot. He might not be a cool next door guy but he is one of the most lovable person on earth, only if you know him well. And this makes me again miss him a lot, right now.

Life

monikadchowdhry — Tue, 28 Sep 2010 14:18:46 +0000

My concept of life has changed a bit with the change of life’s changing seasons. I would like to describe it best in the words of a Chinese writer Lin Yutang- – “I like the spring but it’s too young. I like the summer but it’s too proud. So I have come to like the autumn best of all. It’s tone is mellower, it’s colors are richer and it is a bit tinged of sorrow…it has the kindly wisdom of approaching age. It knows life’s limitations and it’s content.”

These are not my words…of course. Thanks to CWG 2010, that I had to take Delhi Metro today and therefore got lot of time to do a bit of reading. And so these words came out of that reading.

What a weekend…

monikadchowdhry — Mon, 13 Sep 2010 04:54:55 +0000

The weekend that just went by was one of those I’d keep asking for again and again. It was pretty much a mix of lotsa activity and fun. One of the reason was the elongated weekend due to chutti on Friday. So it started with a ‘safai abhiyaan’ on Friday. We used the opportunity that Anku was away to school and cleared up all of extra pieces of things & rubbish from our house. So by evening, we were all tired but felt a lot light after looking at those clean rooms. Another achievement of Friday was that my lil’ one started sleeping on her separate bed and so after many years, I slept with so much of space on me…sounds weird but true for people with little kids. Saturday was the most exciting part when I met up with my MBA friends after 6 years. I can’t explain how good it felt. Of course people change with time and thus their attitude but for me I was just happy to be with friends. People who are not like my relatives to expect too much formality. I was just free, happy, smiling & laughing (yes laughing, I don’t remember having a laugh like that for a long time). We came back late night, though I wasn’t still tired. And Sunday of course was awaited roka of Vanu. I was praying hard for her and thankfully everything went smoothly. She looked happy and so all of us were happy for her. Of course everything through the weekend was not as happish. Picked up a terrible argument with mil however more than it should have bothered me, it bothered her. And lesson learnt was, she has actually lost her capability to think logically. So I should stop expecting. While there was a lesson learnt for her as well and that were basic table manners.

The after-effects of such an eventful weekend continue on Monday too. When I got into my car this morning to start my daily drive towards office, there were a handful of mosquitoes inside my car. Reason – I left one of my windows slightly ajar last night. And with the dengue scare more in my office than anywhere else (one colleague is down with Dengue), I lived the fear through my 50 minute drive to office. Despite all efforts to shoo away all those mosquitoes from my car, one or two still remained inside and kept bothering me. I hope that I remain fine and don’t catch this deadly fever now. I hate to be sick…really.

My phone clicks…

monikadchowdhry — Mon, 06 Sep 2010 06:44:49 +0000

These pictures are a result of my impulsive nature. Thanks to my newly acquired Nokia E71 that I have been able to capture some obvious moments of my life.

Kids on street -

The first two pictures here are of two kids who I see everyday on Siddhartha hotel crossing. It took a lot of effort for me to click them. I see them everyday and each day it pains somewhere in my heart for not being able to help them.

Power theft -

The last picture is of a man trying to fix a ‘kaanta’ on live electricity pole near Wazir Pur Depot to start his juice shop. His day begins always with this risky act that actually can make it the last day of his life. After a while he succeeds to fasao his kaanta…he’ll live another day.

Being narcissist on Monday -

And the remaining bits (that’s me)…this was today…blame it on traffic jams of Delhi roads or Monday morning blues. Or may be due to the fact I haven’t tried out different angles of light with my phone camera since many days.

Corporate website Vs Social media…

monikadchowdhry — Fri, 23 Jul 2010 11:06:57 +0000

Beautiful post

monikadchowdhry — Tue, 29 Jun 2010 05:17:51 +0000

You do not have to wait for the heads of countries to reach a compromise. You do not need a Peace Treaty to ratify the friendships you want or already have with Them. It is people like us who make and bring peace. Do not wait “until the next time”. Do it today.

Read this amazing post by Reader in Azerbaijan. It really made me think about people in India and what’s a common person’s opinion on Indo-Pak peace dialog? If these leaders could have got us peace through this so called peace process, they would never have got the conflict situation in the first place.

Na teerath mein, na moorat mein, mein to hun vishwaas mein

monikadchowdhry — Fri, 18 Jun 2010 10:53:12 +0000

moko kahan dhundhere bande, main to tere paas mein

na teerath mein na moorat mein, na ekant niwas mein

na mandir mein na masjid mein, na kabe kailash mein

mein to tere paas mein bande,mein to tere paas mein

khoji hoye turat mil jaoon, ik pal ki talash mein

kahet kabir suno bhai sadho, mein to hun vishwas mein

na mein jap mein na mein tap mein, na bharat upaas mein

na mein kiiriya karm mein rehta, nahin jog sanyas mein

nahin pran mein nahin pind mein, na brahmand akash mein

na mein prakariti prawar gufa mein, nahin swasan ki sans mein

mein to tere paas mein bande,mein to tere paas mein

khoji hoye turat mil jaoon, ik pal ki talash mein

kahet kabir suno bhai sadho, mein to hun vishwas mein

Alone

monikadchowdhry — Mon, 14 Jun 2010 17:00:27 +0000

Tonight is the second one consecutively when we will be sleeping without Anku…the room is very lonely. So is the house but having said that I would not take that right of staying over at nani’s place from her. Every child has that right to get pampered by her nana-nani and those are some of the days that no kid forgets. She is at her nani’s place since yesterday and I feel I have all the time in the world without her being around.